Addicted

Out on the balcony in the cold tonight
I wanted to celebrate
Wanted to celebrate today, the future
Our future

Embers falling on my legs
You’re out, white-nosed and crisp red
God, you look good in red
If only I were there

Looking at our pictures
Your smile
It only gets bigger

My hand’s a little shaky
Holding this pen like a smoke
I swallow a chip, breathe deep
I don’t even use these things

It’s raining in Philadelphia, 1 a.m.
I’m numbing myself to Wednesday
When I'll keep you dry
Shelter from the storm

Who are you with?
What are you doing?
Whatever

I miss you
Need you
Need your voice

I’m sorry
I can’t stop
Can’t keep my fucking mouth shut
Can’t keep these words to myself
They’re beautiful though, true
Clawing their way up my insides
Burning my throat

I’m only lookin’ out for you, baby
I’m gonna give you everything

Everything
You’re everything


(10.27.08)